“If you want to see something glorious,
Look at the Pleiades”- Maggie Nelson (something bright, then holes)
I knew you for seven years
in your constellation of Taurus-
six years, I held on for more.
A hot blue heliacal rise- you sailed
to more cities than I’ve ever seen,
places that only make sense in myth.
I stayed in the ordinary world.
I waited on the porch for your car
to pick me up, the black Mustang.
Your father had bestowed it
as a gift. You borrowed
my luggage for your travels.
When the tags didn't read
where you said you’d been,
I placed myself amongst the stars
In Marfa, my fiancé points to Polaris.
The mud of a Milky Way separates us,
stretches into black, the other side
of space. You bought a silver jacket
Wore it to the movies. You left it
at my house. I left it untouched for
seven days. You came over.
You drank all the tequila. You
told me to stop calling.
I went to the movies alone.
So many theaters I cried inside.
A dark room, stellar silence.
I offered you a golden apple to stay.
I told you so many great stories.
If you want to see something glorious,
look at the story of the cosmos.
I prayed to Zeus- make me a star,
take my body up and into the sky.
Every seven months you send
for me. I sent back a message
for you to stop. A distant planet.
In my apartment, a flock of doves
cluster by the window. I settle
into living this way, living like
you. Now I will marry a man who
finds me in space. He made me a bird.
We become a larger bird.
Brittany Ackerman is a writer from Riverdale, New York. She earned her BA in English from Indiana University and graduated from Florida Atlantic University’s MFA program in Creative Writing. She teaches Archetypal Psychology and Creative Writing at AMDA College and Conservatory of the Performing Arts in Hollywood, CA. She was the 2017 Nonfiction Award Winner for Red Hen Press, as well as the AWP Intro Journals Project Award Nominee in 2015. Her work has been featured in The Los Angeles Review, No Tokens, Hobart, Cosmonauts Ave, Fiction Southeast, and more. She currently lives in Los Angeles, California with her first collection of essays entitled The Perpetual Motion Machine out with Red Hen Press.