Hadiyyah Kuma: A Brief History of Mother
Photo: Joanna C. Valente

Photo: Joanna C. Valente

A Brief History of Mother

 

1

Almost something

But not even a thought

 

2012

While mother sleeps

I pull darkness over my head

And watch another YouTube video

Possibly prepared to die

 

2028

 

While mother sleeps

I sit on barren ground

Counting what is left

of the grass blades

 

2010

 

While mother sleeps

I pull lazy dandelions

From the grass

And tuck them to sleep

 

2000

 

While mother sleeps

I tread the fluids

Drinking the stomach

Waiting for air

 

2030

 

When mother wakes,

She won’t be here

but

Neither will I

 

2019

 

While mother sleeps

I close the window

To keep the hotness

Outside

 

2029

 

While mother sleeps

I listen to the radio and hear

We are going to be

First, or maybe second

 

2015

 

While mother sleeps

Father says

Global warming is a hoax

And passes me a cookie

 

2030

 

While mother sleeps

I close the window

Though I know it won’t

Stop the annihilation

 

2007

My friend Katie says

We are all dying slowly

I wish the earth would spin

A little bit faster

 

2015

 

While mother sleeps

I google, “depression quiz.”

The results tell me how

I’m falling apart

 

2020

 

While mother sleeps

I google, “how much longer?”

The results tell me how

We might burn or sink

 

2030

 

I call some family members

Just to have them on the phone

But most of their voices are

Already gone

 

1990

 

While mother sleeps

I consider being born

The shape of my head

Comes to mind

 

2030

 

It’s not fair

I actually wanted

To live today

 

0

 

Almost nothing

Barely a thought


Hadiyyah Kuma is from Toronto, Ontario. Her work has been or will be featured in places like The Jellyfish Review, The Aerogram, Cosmonauts Avenue, and Mojave Heart. Find more of her writing at https://dedicatedrambler.wordpress.com/writing/. (Twitter: @hahadiyyah)