Claudia Delfina Cardona: I Thought That Meant You Loved Me

Claudia Delfina Cardona: I Thought That Meant You Loved Me



It’s Friday and you’re crossing

the street from Taco Haven and I don’t

remember how you looked or

whether your shirt was red or gray.

I only remember how you were telling

me stories about taking drugs with Aubrey

but I was more interested in admiring the craters

in your cheeks and how you accidentally

lit the cigarette filter again. How all

my memories of you include emerald

glass bottles and porches. And how we

walked by the river and you told

me, everything always leads back to you,

and I thought that meant that you loved

me but I am no longer 18 and know

that it means you will always exist

in my dead skin. My body

is made of winning scratch offs.

A lottery of 30,000

future poems shedding from my body

every day for the rest of my life.

How wonderful. All I have

to do is scrub my skin and write.

Claudia Delfina Cardona is a Xicana poet proudly born and raised in San Antonio, Texas. She is a graduate of St. Mary’s University and a current poetry candidate at Texas State University, where she is the current Editorial Fellow for the Center for the Study of the Southwest. She is also the Editor-in-Chief and Co-Founder of Chifladazine, an online and print publication that is dedicated to showcasing the creative work of Latinas and Latinxs. The zine can be read at She is currently writing dreamy poetry in San Antonio and assisting with the organization of the San Anto Zine Fest in Fall 2017.